Andrew and Abigail often times ask me the exact same questions I have for God during my quiet time with Him, so as I share with them what God is teaching me and what we know to be true from Scripture, we get to model what it looks like to trust and hope in the Lord with an expectant hope, not a desperate hope. You see, I'm realizing my hope in the Lord has been desperate and full of fear at times... fears that He can, but He probably won't, etc. However, over the course of the past couple of months, the Lord has challenged me to rewrite my definition of hope... so here is where He has called me to camp out, Mark 5:36 (and, of course, it was one of the verses our pastor discussed at church today... have I mentioned how much I love our church?)
"Don't be afraid. Just believe."
I am choosing to believe (with expectant anticipation) that God will heal Andrew in whatever way and time He knows is best, so I'm going to stop questioning the how, when, and what if He doesn't, until God says otherwise!
Random pic of the 3 musketeers yesterday
My Bible study girls and their momma's served at a nursing home today calling bingo. It was such a simple act of service, but one that I'm certain mattered to the residents, especially to Leon. All of the residents were in wheel chairs, but Leon was in a wheelchair because he was missing a leg, paralyzed on one side of his body from what I'm guessing was a stroke because his speech is very labored. I knew there was something special about Leon, but it wasn't until we were about to leave and I crouched down to look Leon in the eyes and tell him how much I enjoyed getting to know him that I felt the Lord insist that I share the gospel with him (not because he didn't know the Lord, but more because he needed the reminder of how much God loved him). As I reminded him how much God loved him, he teared up. When I asked him how I could pray for him, he asked for prayers that he would pray more. I asked him if he would pray for me. I told him about Andrew and tears began to stream down his face and he was shaking his head as if to say that he couldn't stand the thought. I told him about Andrew because I wanted Leon to know that Abigail and I knew a little something about suffering. Together we recounted what Scripture says about God, I would quote Scripture and then he would quote Scripture (somehow, this conversation was so easy despite the fact that I could hardly understand the few words that Leon was able to get out which can only be explained by God's grace). Abigail and I prayed over him as he wept (and I joined him of course) and when we were done, I saw Leon smile with a smile that melted my heart and I looked behind me to see my precious Bible study girls praying with us. All I can say is that it was an encounter that I pray blessed Leon, but I think may have been more for me than him. My time with Leon was a great reminder of 2 Corinthians 1:3-6 and served as pre-game for the conversation I would have with Andrew a few hours later. God is SO good!
Someone took a picture of our time with Leon
Thanks for sticking with me through this long post. Many of you have asked questions as to how things are going, so I wanted to be honest about where we are :-)
Please continue to pray for Andrew like he is your own! THANK YOU!!! (((hugs)))